Honestly,

Okay, honestly, for the month of January is so far. so good. Heh,I really like that month because it's the start of year. (well who doesn't love the beginnings of the year?)

Anyway, February have finally come. And what comes to my mind when it comes to February? Reunion. What's after that? Birthday. Yeah,reunion and birthday. I know it's weird that the first 2 things that comes to mind but yeah, that comes to my mind. And what comes after that? Chalet. Yeah, I know I'm a weirdo thinking of such stuffs but that's what I had in my mind people. Why does that comes to my mind? Because my first 2 weeks of February is packed with so many things.(yeah, I'm a busy women lately but still doesn't have a job. MY OH MYYYYYY)

And I don't have the time to celebrate Valentine's Day. No wait, actually I can't celebrate it because it's against my religion to celebrate it (because I'm a Muslim that's why I can't celebrate okay people. Please don't get misunderstood about it.) What's the best is that I don't have a boyfriend, so why the hell should I celebrate Valentine's Day. And furthermore, I think celebrating it at just 1 day, being as romantic as you can on that day is not worth it. Why would I say that? Well, this is going to hurt some people, so be prepared.

Now, firstly, why must you be as romantic as you can on that day when you can actually be as romantic as you can every single day with your other half? Is there like a 'timing' for you guys to be as romantic as you can and then the next moment you decided not to be as romantic as you can? No right? So yeah, that's the first thought that comes to my mind.

Secondly, let's say that you guys fought okay. You guys didn't talk & contact each other because you guys are mad. Then comes Valentine's Day and you guys decides to be as romantic, cheesy as you guys can on that day.(Whatever that you guys can do okay. I don't have a boyfriend for 5 long years so I don't know what you guys are capable of being so romantic okay.) Then after that day, you guys are back to your 'war', not talking and contacting each other. Now tell me, is it worth to celebrate it with your other half on that day by pushing all those problems aside for a day and then those problems come back to you guys the very next day. No right?

You guys must be wondering, why am I saying this? Right? Here's my reason. Because I've seen it with my own eyes that there are couples who did this just for the sake,"Oh it's Valentine's Day. I should get something for my boyfriend/girlfriend. Maybe a Pandora for her/maybe a Nike shoe for him"". But actually they are fighting with each other, having a huge problem in their relationship. So is it worth to celebrate your Valentine's Day just because it's VALENTINE'S DAY? Well I hope not. Now, that's my real reason for why Valentine's Day shouldn't be celebrate for just 1 freaking day. If possible, it should be ALL DAY,EVERYDAY.

And here's something for my future boyfriend,

Dear my dear future boyfriend, I really hope that you can be as romantic as you want, as cheesy as you want till I get sick of it(hehe). And if we fought, please make sure that we settle that freaking problem on the spot because I can't help it but I will be feeling so super sad and uneasy if we didn't settle those problems. And lastly. I'm hoping that you my future boyfriend (and also who's going to be my other half soon in the future) that you will not stop loving me, appreciate me and accept all of my flaws, just like how i accept you just the way you are.  And if it's possible, i really hope that you can quit smoking some day because you know how sensitive my nose is. With that, thank you & I love you.(HAHAHA!)

I'm Not The Only One

You and me, we made a vow
For better or for worse
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof's in the way it hurts

For months on end I've had my doubts
Denying every tear
I wish this would be over now
But I know that I still need you here

You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one

You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though Lord knows you kept mine

You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one

I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
You've made me realize my deepest fear
By lying and tearing us up

You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one

I know I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
And I know...
I know I'm not the only one

Thinking Out Loud

When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are
Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are

Don't give up.

They say you must not give up no matter what's the reason behind it and I guess that's true. I must not give up no mater what. And I'm really proud that I didn't gave up when I took my 2nd last paper for my Finance & Banking course. The reason why I said this is because I've cleared my 2nd last paper! Yeay! I was so happy about it because when i took that paper, something happened to me. On that day, I was confident enough with what I've learned and what's stored in my mind. But the moment I stepped into the examination room, my mind went completely blanked and all of the things that I've studied was gone. Can you imagine how worried/paranoid I am when that happened??? But I decided not to give up on it and tried my best to that paper. And yes thankfully I passed that paper. So I'm left with my last paper(I hope this paper can give me another distinction please.)

Other than that, I've decided to continue my studies in Murdoch University.(oh wow, time is really flying so super fast!) Murdoch University, Double Major in Accounting & Finance. The reason why I decided to take back Accounting in my degree is because :
1) I'm really comfortable in doing Accounting and also with their theories that is currently storing  half on my brain.
2) If I took Banking & Finance instead, it's unlikely that I would be able to work in a bank (because I'm studying in a private institute, so to be safe i decided to take Accounting & Finance.

So I really do hope that this can help me secure a better position when i look for a job in the future. And i really do wish & hope that my degree life will be as exciting as it can be. And also as stressful as it can be. Ha!

Past, Present and Future

The year 2014 have been great for me, to be honest. Lots of things happened on that year, be it those good or bad ones. I'm really thankful of those opportunities that I had earned during that year and I really do hope that 2015 is going to be another amazing year for me. Well 2015, be good to me. Now, let's find a jobbbbbbbbbbbb(time to work already leh.)

Eventually.

And so FINALLY (yes finally!)I'm finishing up my Diploma soon. (No wait, I still need to defer 1 exam so yeah.) Final exam is in a week time so, good luck to me. And since I'm finishing up my Diploma, i decided to........... continue studying for my Degree. Australia based University - Murdoch University and I'll be taking up Double Major Degree in Accounting & Finance. So wish me luck guys! :)

Climax

You appeared in my dream last night
I couldn’t recognize you
because you looked older
I was scared, it seemed like
this would become my reality
Before I left, I promised
you as I held you
I said I would build a
house and wait for you
You should’ve just aged but
why did you age so beautifully?
Not making me able to recognize
you, my mischievous mom
I missed you like crazy
but couldn’t see yo, my love
I can go anywhere and
boldly say, you are my pride
Your smile in the photo is the
knife that cuts through the sadness
You became my dream, now what
time do you wanna come? Tell me
I’ll pick you up, my earnest person

I hope my remaining footsteps
Will come to me tonight
At the end of this
moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming
Tonight, throw it away At the end
of this moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky,
touch the sky

Giving up my youth, I ran
barefoot for three years
After saying a heartless goodbye
to my family and friends
Living each day, always
nervous about tomorrow
I told them to trust me, that
we will succeed for sure
With the weight of not just my life
but five others on my
shoulders, looking for chances
I had no choice but to throw
away the pressure and failures
Now I want to see the light so
I put my future on the line
The gods asked me if I
wasn’t gonna regret this
But I answer without hesitating,
why would I regret?
What’s left behind this stage
is either success or failure
I put my everything on the line
and there is no next time
My determination has no choice
but to be different
from others

Even if this is my last time
I will sing without regrets,
I will sing, sing
Yeah, We Flyin’ tonight
Flyin’ tonight Flyin’ tonight
Flyin’

I hope my remaining footsteps
Will come to me tonight
At the end of this
moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming
Tonight, throw it away
At the end of this moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky,
touch the sky

In the passing time
The memories become songs

In this moment, everyone touch the sky

This song will forever be my study jam, to remind me to work as hard as I can. Just like how they did.