And so FINALLY (yes finally!)I'm finishing up my Diploma soon. (No wait, I still need to defer 1 exam so yeah.) Final exam is in a week time so, good luck to me. And since I'm finishing up my Diploma, i decided to........... continue studying for my Degree. Australia based University - Murdoch University and I'll be taking up Double Major Degree in Accounting & Finance. So wish me luck guys! :)
You appeared in my dream last night I couldn’t recognize you because you looked older I was scared, it seemed like this would become my reality Before I left, I promised you as I held you I said I would build a house and wait for you You should’ve just aged but why did you age so beautifully? Not making me able to recognize you, my mischievous mom I missed you like crazy but couldn’t see yo, my love I can go anywhere and boldly say, you are my pride Your smile in the photo is the knife that cuts through the sadness You became my dream, now what time do you wanna come? Tell me I’ll pick you up, my earnest person
I hope my remaining footsteps Will come to me tonight At the end of this moment of running No limit gon touch the sky (No limit gon touch the sky)
For me, who has been dreaming Tonight, throw it away At the end of this moment of running No limit gon touch the sky No limit gon touch the sky Touch the sky, touch the sky, touch the sky
Giving up my youth, I ran barefoot for three years After saying a heartless goodbye to my family and friends Living each day, always nervous about tomorrow I told them to trust me, that we will succeed for sure With the weight of not just my life but five others on my shoulders, looking for chances I had no choice but to throw away the pressure and failures Now I want to see the light so I put my future on the line The gods asked me if I wasn’t gonna regret this But I answer without hesitating, why would I regret? What’s left behind this stage is either success or failure I put my everything on the line and there is no next time My determination has no choice but to be different from others
Even if this is my last time I will sing without regrets, I will sing, sing Yeah, We Flyin’ tonight Flyin’ tonight Flyin’ tonight Flyin’
I hope my remaining footsteps Will come to me tonight At the end of this moment of running No limit gon touch the sky (No limit gon touch the sky)
For me, who has been dreaming Tonight, throw it away At the end of this moment of running No limit gon touch the sky No limit gon touch the sky Touch the sky, touch the sky, touch the sky
In the passing time The memories become songs
In this moment, everyone touch the sky
This song will forever be my study jam, to remind me to work as hard as I can. Just like how they did.
Okay, firstly a big yeay because of two reasons. Firstly, I've finally hit the big 2! I don't really know if it's a good thing or a bad thing because one thing for sure, I'm starting to feel old even though I've hit the big 2, (HAHA!) Secondly, I'm on my final lap for my diploma course! Last 2 modules and then I'm official done with Diploma. *insert some of my study jamming songs* To be honest, I'm still thinking if I should continue studying right after I end this Diploma or work for 2-3 years then continue studying. I'm still thinking if I should pick up a Double Major Degree or just stay put studying in a Business course. (I don't know, maybe back to Accounting or Banking or Finance.) I'm still thinking if i should study in a Australia based University or in a UK based University. Ahhh, my mind is full of this things lately. :(
Anyway, today is the last day for the month of October. (WHY DO TIME FLIES SUPER FAST??? CAN YOU SLOW DOWN??!??) Dear October, you have been such a great month to me.(Thankfully) Other than that, I hope the last 2 months of the year would be great to me. Hopefully some great things will happen to me.(Yes I do hope so!)
Other than that, I'm really so motivated to do my very best for the last 2 modules. No wait. Actually I'm still worried about my FRA module because all I know is I actually flung my final paper. I DON'T CARE WHETHER THEY ARE BALANCE OR NOT.I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE THEORY EVEN THOUGH I WROTE SOMETHING. (This is the perk of being an accounting student, knowing how many marks will you get when you wrote the important stuffs. Heh.) Oh I just hope a Pass will do for the exam paper and at least a Distinction as the whole module for FRA. *finger crossed*
Okay, so the last lap. Here I go. Hopefully I have some time blogging when I'm in the mist of doing this final lap because I know I'll be super busy with it. Wish me luck!
Why why you leave me alone baby I’m still still loving you Right now you’re leaving me behind but I wish you happiness
Like a habit you always told me About what will come to you and me (Our last) Like a habit I always told you I will do everything I can To protect
(I wanna) Hold you tight Make you mine Never leave me alone I only want you That’s enough for me In the end everything went wrong Why are you leaving me behind when I’m like this
Good luck baby good luck to you You have to be happy Me who only looks at you If you’re leaving me behind when I only had you Good luck baby good luck to you
Whoever you meet You have to be happier As much as the pain you caused me
I hate you love you Up and down multiple times in a day Feels like an elevator Heal me I’m heartsick There ain’t no cure for my disease I’m worn out because of you The amount of pain you caused me I can’t estimate it In this situation I fold my hands together for you I pray for ya Good luck to ya
(I wanna)Hold you tight Make you mine Never leave me alone I only want you That’s enough for me In the end everything went wrong Why are you leaving me behind when I’m like this
Good luck baby good luck to you You have to be happy Me who only looks at you If you’re leaving me behind when I only had you Good luck baby good luck to you Whoever you meet You have to be happier As much as the pain you caused me
You have to be happier Just know this as you leave There is no one who will love you like I did I’m just one of your many break-ups but You are my first and last
Good luck baby good luck to you You have to be happy Me who only looks at you If you’re leaving me behind when I only had you Good luck baby good luck to you Whoever you meet You have to be happier As much as the pain you caused me
You know sometimes I feel like a loser. I mean, I’m
currently at a diploma level taking Finance & Banking and all I get for my
results are just “passed”. You might be thinking, “Hey a pass is good.” But truthfully,
nah. My parents have huge expectations on me since I came from accounting
background. That’s how stressful my life is with people having huge
expectations on you. [And i willingly said to them that they can delay buying my iPhone 6 (because I felt my results wasn't good enough) when I'm actually that desperately need one because my current phone, which is iPhone 4 screen starts to get blur and it often hangs when I really need to use it. Damn you phone.]
Now I really have to do well for my other 4 modules,
(currently taking the 3rd batch of the 2 modules that I’m currently
taking so that means I’m left with the 4th batch of modules, the
last two modules.) Sigh. And I’m currently thinking if I should continue
studying to degree level. (Tell me if I should continue please!)
Other than that, woah, I'm struggling doing my latest assignment, which is Financial Reporting and Analysis (FRA). It's like the first time I'm writing a 3,000 words essay and I'm currently thinking, how in the world am I going to write another 1,500 words since I have wrote 1,500 words so far. I mean, this is the first time I'm writing such a long assignment and my due date for this assignment is........TOMORROW. I'm currently a dead meat since I'm half way done but thank god my lecturer is kind enough to let me extend the due date to next week. Oh yes. Thank you lecturer, may God bless you & your understanding.(HAHA)
Okay, I shall get back to work now and continue the rest tomorrow morning after subuh.
Sometimes, people are too quick to judge other people. I mean it SERIOUSLY.I really hate people who are in this category. Like are you serious?? You judge other people too quick without knowing them more in the first place.
The reason why I rant about this is because I totally hate to be in this position right now and I really do mean it. -_-.
Now, tell me. Do you trust those people who have been in a long friendship with you? Of you do, don't you? (if this hurts you, then I'm sorry. This is deeply what i felt from the bottom of my heart.)
You had a problem, I listened & promised you not to tell the others. And yes I did hold onto that promise. (Bear that in mind, I DID HOLD ONTO THAT PROMISE) I didn't tell the whole story, i just said "oh you wanted to talk to me about it." THAT'S ALL. And you're unhappy with it when the other party knew about you & me talking about it? Come on, i didn't break the promise that I've made up with you honey. :(
Your tweets are totally so OBVIOUS up till the point everyone asked, "are they okay?", "what's going on between them?"
Reflect about this honey. You're scared of telling your problem (because you're worried that others are worried about you, but the truth is WE'RE WORRIED ABOUT YOU.), I'm there for you. Speak to me about it. I'm always there for you sweetie. Bear that in mind. I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU.
Hold on in there, the pain will slowly and surely ends soon. Provided you know whether it's worth to hold the pain or not. If you know the worth, good for you. If you don't, start thinking about it I'm sure at the end of the day, you will look back and said, "Hey, that's worth the pain!"
ohmygawd, I'm really Really REALLY stress with my assignments right now because I have to hand it up a week after Hari Raya. You know how stressful it is to rush my assignment every single day/hour? Thank goodness I cleared my first assignment and need to hand it up tomorrow. Now rushing to do the next assignment, which is Economics. Oh my. Dear assignment, please have some mercy with me this week and please be good to me time. Thanks.
It's really quite upsetting that sometimes, some people didn't see your effort that you have been putting in. It's really upsetting when they said, "you have not tried your best." and "you did not learn from the previous lesson don't you?". I'm sick & tired of hearing it and i wish people should stop saying that. Really. It's hurtful to hear that & i can actually just give up on it. But then i decided not to because i know i have to do this in order for me to have a better job future. Whatever it is, I'm going to do my best and i'm going to prove it to you soon. Watch me.
Done with my first assignment, now i'm rushing with the next assignment that needs to be handed up by the end of the week. Good luck to me as in the next 1-2 weeks time, it will be exams week. And soon, I will continue with the next few modules for the courses. Can't be in the state of falling sick right now, so I have to be healthy for the next few months. Fighting to me, HAHAHA.
Currently busy with study life up to the point that i don't have much time for myself, some "me" time, they said. Busy with assignment that is going to due next week and busy with revision for the upcoming exams that is going to be in the next 2 weeks. Good luck to myself, heh. Will update once I'm done with my 2 modules soon!
You know, it's been 2 weeks that I'm currently studying at Kaplan and to be honest, the joy of teaching Accounting to my classmates is fun. Most of my China classmates came to me and asked me some questions that they are unsure about. Some even asked me to teach them because they didn't understand. So, there I was teaching them even though we have a language barrier which is I can't speak Chinese AT ALL. It's frustrating that I couldn't converse in Chinese when they don't understand an English word but they still put the effort to understand it in the simplest way that i explain to them. Ahhh, the joy of teaching is totally fun and I really don't mind teaching them even though I'm not qualified to be their teacher teaching them but with the knowledge that I had on Accounting, it's not only I teach them, I get to teach them and at the same time I manage to learn the things that i taught them once again. Now, that's where the joy come from.
I can't really explain this joy much more in detail as I'm still in the process of teaching them. So most probably around June I should be able to explain this joy in the future.
Some people ask me how did I turn my can't into cans. Well, it's simple. Never ever turn your can't into something that you think you're unable to turn it into your cans. To be honest, I'm really thankful of my friends who help me overcome my fears of my can't and help me turn them into my cans. Be it my best friends or just normal friends, they are there for me. That's what friends are for right? And that's why I there for them whenever they needs help.
Studying back Accounting is something I thought I'm unable to do it again. I first thought that Accounting is not my forte. Really, the fear of getting a U grade is haunting me back again even though I'm currently studying Finance & Banking. But I told myself, "let's turn my can't into my can. Let me turn this into my forte." And ta-dah! I've finally made it into my forte with the help of my awesome friends who never got sick of supporting me.
I can't stop thanking them because they played such an important role in my life. Thank you so much. Without them, I think up till today I would probably still living in a horror thinking that I would get a U grade again while studying Accounting back in the ITE days.
So in life, two things are important. One, turn your can't into your cans. And two, be there for your friends because they are going to be there for you when you need help. When you did these two important things, nothing will be impossible and you will lead a positive thinking. Now that's what I've been doing. That's my secret. Heh. :D
What is failure? Well, to be honest, I've gone through lots of failures in my life. I don't know how many million failures i made for the past 19 years of my life. Best friends who stayed by my side must have watched me getting failures without fail. Be it in studies, friendships or relationships. I've gone through all of it to be honest. You might think "Hey, you're kidding me aren't you?" Nope, I'm not kidding you. I've experience it and I know how it feels like to go through a failure over and over again. I really don't want to experience another failure in life again even though many of us said, "People makes mistakes." Yeah it's true. People make mistakes. But what if that mistake is something the we regret doing or having it? Well, think about it. I'm sure you don't want to experience it right? "Everything happens for a reason." Remember that. That must be a test for all of us. So be brave to experience it in life and of course in the future. Why am I saying this? Well, it's because I'm ready to experience it because I have to be ready for it. Now that's what life is all about. So, let's all be brave in facing every obstacle in life. Then you will realize that life is too short to make things perfect but instead make things as a mistake and learn from it from there. Well, that's all that I can say regarding failures. Till then!
To be honest, it's okay to be different. How different you want yourself to be? Well, that's up to you. Just like the cupcakes picture above, it's up to you to decide how different you want it to be. To be different from your friends and others. In life, as the days, or maybe years goes by, people try to be as different as they can throughout those time. Maybe their attitude that they want to change it and try it to be different, well who knows right? Well, can't nobody hold us to be different. It's up to us to be different, so don't be afraid to be different from them. By doing those changes, who knows it's makes you to be a good person in the future.
In fact, here i'm trying to be different from others. Hmm, you might be thinking in what way am i trying to be different. Well, i don't know actually but i guess in terms of my way of thinking is what i'm trying to be different from others. You might think that it's impossible to do it, but hey, you will never know if you try right?
So, you learn to ask yourself questions like, "Hey, am I doing the right thing?" for an instance. Nowadays, all of us depend too much on others for our happiness. We often use them as distractions from ourselves. So, being different from others is okay. You'll finally be able to learn that you're enough to different from others. The only thing you can never lose and never have to worry about is losing you. You will always have you. Learn to change somethings with yourself and everything else positive that comes your way will be a surprise. Maybe not only you, but others will be surprise with the changes that you have made.
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