The thoughts in my mind

You know sometimes I feel like a loser. I mean, I’m currently at a diploma level taking Finance & Banking and all I get for my results are just “passed”. You might be thinking, “Hey a pass is good.” But truthfully, nah. My parents have huge expectations on me since I came from accounting background. That’s how stressful my life is with people having huge expectations on you. [And i willingly said to them that they can delay buying my iPhone 6 (because I felt my results wasn't good enough) when I'm actually that desperately need one because my current phone, which is iPhone 4 screen starts to get blur and it often hangs when I really need to use it. Damn you phone.]

Now I really have to do well for my other 4 modules, (currently taking the 3^rd batch of the 2 modules that I’m currently taking so that means I’m left with the 4^th batch of modules, the last two modules.) Sigh. And I’m currently thinking if I should continue studying to degree level. (Tell me if I should continue please!)

Other than that, woah, I'm struggling doing my latest assignment, which is Financial Reporting and Analysis (FRA). It's like the first time I'm writing a 3,000 words essay and I'm currently thinking, how in the world am I going to write another 1,500 words since I have wrote 1,500 words so far. I mean, this is the first time I'm writing such a long assignment and my due date for this assignment is........TOMORROW. I'm currently a dead meat since I'm half way done but thank god my lecturer is kind enough to let me extend the due date to next week. Oh yes. Thank you lecturer, may God bless you & your understanding.(HAHA)

Okay, I shall get back to work now and continue the rest tomorrow morning after subuh.

Till then!

Perspective

Sometimes, people are too quick to judge other people. I mean it SERIOUSLY.I really hate people who are in this category. Like are you serious?? You judge other people too quick without knowing them more in the first place.

The reason why I rant about this is because I totally hate to be in this position right now and I really do mean it. -_-.

Now, tell me. Do you trust those people who have been in a long friendship with you? Of you do, don't you? (if this hurts you, then I'm sorry. This is deeply what i felt from the bottom of my heart.)
You had a problem, I listened & promised you not to tell the others. And yes I did hold onto that promise. (Bear that in mind, I DID HOLD ONTO THAT PROMISE) I didn't tell the whole story, i just said "oh you wanted to talk to me about it." THAT'S ALL. And you're unhappy with it when the other party knew about you & me talking about it? Come on, i didn't break the promise that I've made up with you honey. :(

Your tweets are totally so OBVIOUS up till the point everyone asked, "are they okay?", "what's going on between them?"

Reflect about this honey. You're scared of telling your problem (because you're worried that others are worried about you, but the truth is WE'RE WORRIED ABOUT YOU.), I'm there for you. Speak to me about it. I'm always there for you sweetie. Bear that in mind. I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU.

Eyes, Nose, Lips

You never really got to lie

I just need you to say goodbye

Then I'll really let you go

And you'll never see me so just,

Stop wasting my time

I'll never come around you again, No more

This will be the end, now just shut that door

But you'll miss me everyday,

So hurt in every way

It will probably make you wanna go and drive yourself insane

You could have it all but you broke my heart

And now I gotta do what I do

You know you always bring out the best in me

But you played me for a fool 

Why you do that babe

It doesnt have to be this way

But there's no way I could stay

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I try

I wanna believe in your lies

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I die

Feels like I'm losing my mind

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm so done

Before you wake up I will be gone

No more sitting home alone

Or waiting for your phone call

You don't deserve my love

Now you can go look for that girl next door

Cause you ain't the one I can call my own

I know you'll miss me everyday

So hurting every way

It will probably make you wanna go and drive yourself insane

You could have had it all, but you chose her

And now I gotta find someone new

You don't even know you had the best in me

Now who looks like a fool

Why'd you do that babe

It doesn't have to be this way

But there's no way I could stay

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I try

I wanna believe in your lies

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I die

Feels like I'm losing my mind

I wish that I could make this all go way

But it seems there's no way I canescape

But I'll be okay if I never have to see your face again

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I try (If I try, If I try)

I wanna believe in your lies (I wanna believe in your lies)

And your eyes, nose, lips

It hunts my memory

I can't forget you if I die

Feels like I'm losing my mind

Something that you need to do in your life.

Taking a risk in submitting my assignment is really not a joke. Oh my, just hoping & praying that I can pass my assignment. Sigh. Wish me luck. >.<

Hold on, pain ends.

Hold on in there, the pain will slowly and surely ends soon. Provided you know whether it's worth to hold the pain or not. If you know the worth, good for you. If you don't, start thinking about it I'm sure at the end of the day, you will look back and said, "Hey, that's worth the pain!"

No one said that you can't do it

ohmygawd, I'm really Really REALLY stress with my assignments right now because I have to hand it up a week after Hari Raya. You know how stressful it is to rush my assignment every single day/hour? Thank goodness I cleared my first assignment and need to hand it up tomorrow. Now rushing to do the next assignment, which is Economics. Oh my. Dear assignment, please have some mercy with me this week and please be good to me time. Thanks.

Feelings

It's really quite upsetting that sometimes, some people didn't see your effort that you have been putting in. It's really upsetting when they said, "you have not tried your best." and "you did not learn from the previous lesson don't you?". I'm sick & tired of hearing it and i wish people should stop saying that. Really. It's hurtful to hear that & i can actually just give up on it. But then i decided not to because i know i have to do this in order for me to have a better job future. Whatever it is, I'm going to do my best and i'm going to prove it to you soon. Watch me.